TMJ Friends

Either the swelling has gone down a little bit, or I am getting used to my new big face. I think it’s the latter.
The pain on a scale of one to ten is a tolerable six. I still need pain medication but I don’t feel like crying. It’s hard to distinguish at this point what is surgical pain and what is residual pain left over from TMJ disorder.
This morning when I got up and spoke to my Mom, the strangest thing happened. After I said a couple of words to her, I found myself repeating what I said over and over and making different noises. My new joints vibrate when I talk, but only with certain words. I think I’ll either get used to it, or it will disappear once the swelling goes down. Will I be hearing radio stations next? And I hope if I do it’s not Mexican Polka music!
Most people ask me if the joints feel “weird.” I honestly have to say (besides the vibrating), that they don’t feel any different than my last ones did. I think this both speaks for the amazing construction of them and the incredibly talented surgeon who implanted them.
I still have questions about how they’ll feel as time goes on, like in weather changes - will cold effect me? Will I feel storms coming? I’ll just have to wait and see.

I think that the general rule of thumb is that after any major trauma to your body (and surgery definitely is a trauma), it will take about a year before you feel like it never happened. That isn’t to say I am going to just lay low for a year and feel sorry for myself. However, I do feel that having two major surgeries in such a short period of time has had a profound effect on me even though I may not know it at this moment. I also feel more beat up and more fragile this time around. Perhaps part of that is the let down of having it all over with, too. Friends and family tend to think that the surgery is over with now… I’m okay, and they get on with their lives.. when in fact, this is the period when I probably need the most emotional support. I’m glad to have all of you guys here supporting me, and I know I can count on you when I need you.

By the way, today I had a happy meal and some carrot cake. My tongue was very happy.